Black In Money Recovery

 Black in Money Recovery One Hundred Years later  Blacks live on an lonely Island of Poverty   in the midst  of a vast ocean of material Prosperity modified from Dr. King's I have a Dream Speech The first thing that I did when I entered program was to start a 90 meetings in 90 days. I had one objective, to breathe during the meeting. I felt as if someone was sucking the air out of the room each time that I heard a share. It was so painful to listen to the experience, strength and hope of other fellows. I knew that I wasn't alone. I could relate to so many of the stories. There was also a sense of sadness because many of the stories, I could not relate.  None of the stories including anything about racism. There were no stories of being the last hired and the first fired. There were no stories of people expecting you to work harder for less money for the opportunity "to represent your race." There were  stories of everyone assuming that we all shared the sam...

 Black in Money Recovery I focus on releasing my generational trauma as I reverently embrace my generational power. My ancestors gave me ancestral wisdom and the skills to be great. Darleana M I remember when I first head of the Money 12 step meetings. I was in the  12 step relationship program. I found myself talking about my frustrations with money management and earning. I seemed to be always giving away my money and time. I resented not having enough of each for me because I had given it away. I was frustrated and tired. I complained all the time.  Then someone mentioned in their share about recently joining the money program. My heart skipped a beat. There was a 12 step program for people who had dysfunction around money? I needed to be in that room.  I would like to say that people in the money program welcomed me with open arms but I would be lying. I started in Underearners Anonymous and Debtors Anonymous. I was greeted with suspicion as well indifference. Wh...

 Black  In  Money  Recovery I remember when I first heard that there were  12 step meeting for recovery in areas of money dysfunction. It took my breath away. I had known for 30 years that I sabotaged myself around money issues. I would make absolutely brilliant decisions and they I would become emotionally overwrought and make absolutely stupid choices.  When I was 17, I left home one day after my high school graduation with $10 and a one way ticket to San Francisco. I got a job within 4 days and my older brother decided on my monthly rent based on my salary. I had to pay rent as soon as I got a job to teach me responsibility. This was the beginning of my fear that I wouldn't be able to pay my living expenses and my feelings of deprivation.   I loved walking through the mall during my breaks and looking at all the beautiful new things. The Department store that I worked for gave me a credit card. The credit card gave me relief. Even if I didn't earn e...